I am a Wonder Woman. / мускулистый, опасный и немного жирненький
I don t really know, why am i always crying reading the last parts of Fruits Basket. It feels so warm inside. And one moment this warmth in your heart just become tears. It starts hurting somewhere deep inside you. Hurting of... Understanding. Hurting because of beauty. Because of something you can't even explain. It is so much bigger than you so you feel your self so miserable, having such a long way to go. So a long way without any ending. And every page it becomes more and more painful. Just like your heart really wants to break. And tears do not stop. It is like... Seeing the most beautiful thing in the world. When the time stops and you are watching it and understand. Understand that you want to have somebody by your side now. To hug him end cry. Crying out all the dark and all miserable you have. Just crying till the tears would end. It is nearly the saddest feeling in whole world. The saddest and the most beautiful.
Can i ever just touch it? Can i ever reach it? Can i make myself a beet better? Can i do anything with it?
Cause you understand, that you lost again. Lost without any doubt. You were good. Even good enough to be proud of. But you lost again.
I ll start it over again. I will lose again. And again. And again. And someday in my whole life i will be able to hold it. Just a little. Cause it is no meaning if i can't. So one day. I will start it again soon. From the very beginning. And there definitely will be a day, than i can leave this gentle feeling in my heart.
But for this moment i m just a crying girl. Let me cry just a little more.

Being left behind is very lonely.
Mother, I ll be going now.
Living in a world where "promise" "bond" and "eternity" don't exist, and living in a world full of strangers is a very, very... scary thing... Scared that there is no guarantee that i ll be loved. -Well then Akito-san and i should start all over again, right now, right here.
Happiness and pleasure will inevitably come to an end. But fear and sadness will come for an end as well. Always. Even if you don't believe it. Don't give up. Do not give up walking. even if i'm not by your side.

And one thing to describe a picture. They crying. They just feeling so hurt, because she is. It was the last thing i guess for today. I just for the moment felt what is it, the feeling in their hearts now. And i ended up crying. Crying so hard.
Yuki. Since when it is... "So don't let her cry". How much is it. Since when you became this... This beautiful. Just have no other words.

Even if there are many scars on one's feet in order to reach somewhere some day.
There is no turning back. No meaningful apology. Just for being listened to. For being accepted. -Then from now on you should cherish them.
I found you.
I felt like crying in my corner of the world.


Let's start walking.

@темы: Чужие строки в моем сердце, фуруба, Любовь